It's been so long since my last post, not that nothing happens, haha.. It's just that i've been the laziest person that i've ever been in my whole life these few weeks. My last semester of college kills me. Any more than that is probably just because i've realized how boring and lame i really am, either speaking, writing, or even living *sobs*.
I feel really ashamed reading back my previous post entries, feeling like i want to just delete them all, i don't know why. Maybe that's how you felt too reading it? Anyway, maybe i just need to try harder *grin*
Without realizing May has passed, i spend my days doing nothing, i have only one subject and classes are only on Thursday and Friday, that's how boring and sad it is. I've just realized i've spent almost 3 years in college, and i will graduate in no time.
Last April i went back home to spend my holiday and do my research at the same time. Things were slightly better during my time back at my hometown, Bali. I didn't expect it to be that way, since i had too much complain on my research and all. But thanks to my mum, eventually those bad times passed. It was really exciting spending a few more days in Bali, with all my research part done, i can say i had a great time. I needed not to worry about anything. My clothes were washed, food are ready every time i want to eat. It's the same feeling as it used to when i'm still at home. And back there I'm a little girl again.
The first few days in Bali was torturing. I had too much things to worry, too little time. And i just feel like i miss Malaysia, i miss being mature and free. But then again, home is where your heart belongs, and i can't really say in words how much i love my mum and grateful i had her. She calms me down every time I panic. She always prays for all of us and one of the reason that I can get the feedback that i need for my research.
I love my mum, sometimes i can be as stubborn as mule with her and it amazes me that every time i do she always have extra patience to deal with me. I am such a drama queen, i react too much on little things and easily get stressed over things that will eventually get solved. But my mum, she is always calm, she can handle all the pressure and keep it so deep that no one can read it. It is very rare to see my mum get angry over little things unlike me who always clumsily and stupidly react on simple things. Someday i really want to be just like her, but now all i know to do is to love her as much as possible and be with her, listen to what she has to say. So do to my dad. :D
I think i should end here, i've got too emotional already, haha.. I miss my whole family.. They will come and visit me on August, my whole family will spend our holiday together visiting east Malaysia, yay! :D
Until next time :D
Love your mum and dad. :D
